Tsui ni kizuiteiru

New blogs n such...

2006-05-29T23:17:00.000-04:00

Myspace: http://www.myspace.com/adavit

Livejournal: http://honto-ai.livejournal.com

My MSN Space: http://spaces.msn.com/fayth123/

Check 'em out yo! lol lotsa love from me!!

Um....Miss me my pretties?

2005-12-18T19:52:00.001-05:00

Hey you guys sorry i haven't updated in a LONG ASS TIME but i've been a bit busy. So i'm finally done with the play for skewl which was on November 4 n 5 lol. This wednesday we get out of skewl 2 hrs early for winter break :D and then on sunday is christmas :D i have christmas like 3 days in a row this year lol. At garfield's my g-ma's and then my house lol. OOh and me and garfield are exchanging presents :D lol. So this month we're up to 2 months :D i'm soo happy. I really think he is THEE ONE ya know?! ok well i think i'm gonna get off here and mess around for a few more hours before bed lol. well see ya guys later. Love ya!! XOXOXO

Whoa.....>.<

2005-11-03T15:51:00.000-05:00

Hey you guys!! Really sorry i haven't updated in a while. I've been really busy with practice for the play that I'm in. Tomorrow is opening night for it so i'm happy. Then saturday it'll be over and then i can spend more time with Garfield :D Which he's looking forward to! lol.....He's been so patient and cooperative and i'm glad :D....He's so nice....I love him so much :D:D and i dun wanna lose him which is why i'm trying so hard not to screw up this relationship *Sweat drop*.....ok well i better go its getting about time to head to practice so i'll see ya guys later!! XOXOXO love ya guys!!

Freakin awesome man!!! ^_^ runs around screamin head off

2005-10-11T22:31:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! omg today is awesome!! me n garfield are going out! i'm so happy lol....well ok i gotta get off here and get some rest for the PSAT's that i'm taking tomorrow....well see ya later!!! *winks*....bye...love ya!!! XOXOXOXO

Uhh....>.<

2005-10-04T18:14:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys....haven't posted in awhile and i'm sorry about that lol...well this weekend is homecoming :D i can't wait for it. It's gonna be awesome. I'm going with my friend Garfield ^_^....and before we're gonna go out to eat at the Olive Garden lol XD.....he wanted Italian and i'm like ok sure w/e lol ha XD and he's coming over after i get my hair done which is AFTER dance practice for the skewl play lol. so yea....it's gonna be fun :D....my dress is awesome...if i remember to i'll post some pics on nano or sumthing for ya guys lol if not oh well lol XD just kidding! remind me and i'll post some lol...alright well i think that's it for now so i'll see ya guys later...love ya!!! *kiss* ^_~ XOXOXO

pouts...hmm <_<

2005-09-24T19:53:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys. I dunno what i should title this entry so i'm leaving it up to u guys to come up with a name since i'm too freakin lazy lol. Alright well right now i'm listening to the Numa Numa dance song by O-Zone....damn Yaoi for getting me addicted to this freakin song <_< lol.....its an awesome song if u just wanna get up and dance.....i should go over to England just to go to the clubs and stuff lol they have some awesome music....ok i dunno where that came from <_< lol....ne ways....hmmm well i think that's it that happened with me....oh and we won our football game against Bath....14 to 3 :D lol i'm happy....its sad tho bc its my cuz's last game against Elida and they lost but oh well lol. Ok well see ya guys later....aishiteru!!! ^_~ *blow kiss* <_< ok i dunno why i did that.....*waves* bye!!

Um...insert funny title here

2005-09-19T19:34:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys...um nothing really interesting has been happening with me. Just been upset all the time and practically having break downs every night after skewl. But that's a whole different story <_<.....so yea....hmm ^_~ i think that's a cute little winking thing lol i had to put it on there :D lol....ok well um...hmm i'm sick of ppl puttin weird things on my blog lol....but i'm so happy i'm part of TRUfc and OWON and ORC!!! XD lol Those are the best clubs ever oh can't forget about the Retarded Group Dorks w/e the hell we're called lol with RCD and Yaoi and me :D lol....alright well i think i'm gonna get off of here so i'll see ya guys later!!! *waves* Bye....aishiteru!!!! and i love all of my buddies who read my blog!!! *blows kiss* heh heh :S ^_~

Chicken <_< (lol)

2005-09-15T16:00:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! ok so the title really doesn't have a point i just felt like putting a random title on there lol. well i found a new person who loves me!! I'm sooo happy lol becky loves me!! yay!!! *jumps up n down* XD *runs around* NYAH NYAH!!!! :D....<_< ok got off subject there lol I wanna go up to her house next summer but my mommy is being mean and not letting me...well that's for right now lol if i work on her some more she might let me lol. But yea...skewl has been alittle hard lately....the only ppl who have been really keeping me sane has been Yaoi and Garfield (dun ask about the name XD lol its a joke lol) I come home everyday and talk to her and she makes me feel so much better :D and then i talk to Garfield everyday during skewl lol. Whelp i gotta work on my rough draft for English for a writing contest that i'm gonna enter it into lol....soo i'm gonna work on that and i'll see ya guys later. AISHITERU!!!! Specially you Becky!!!! :D

Hmm....<_<

2005-09-06T21:39:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys...nothing new going on with me. Well ok there is something....i had a mental/emotional breakdown today and was really flipping out. Nothing bad tho just stupid crap. I'm tired now from it lol. I'm watching South Park right now and its so funny lol. I might try out for our skewl's play and go for a singing part...hopefully i can be like Gackt and sing very well....i highly doubt it tho cuz i suck x.x lol. That and i'm sick so that doesn't help ne. *Sigh* hmm i think that's it sorry this is so short i'm just so tired i can barely write and i still have to do my geometry homework and latin homework <_< Whelp see ya guys later, love ya!!

New Short Poems...

2005-09-01T21:50:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!! I got some new short poems added to my msn space....so check 'em out! Here's the link for 'em!!! http://spaces.msn.com/members/fayth123/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c01_blogpart=blogmgmt&_c=blogpart ....I think that's right <_< let me know if it doesn't work!! lol Whelp see ya guys later!!! Oh n i might get a job! lol Hopefully cuz i need the money!! lol XD

Fallen-Angel's First day of Soph. year...

2005-08-30T22:22:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! Well nothing out of the ordinary this year since freshman year. Got some teachers got some classes and homework, homework, and HOMEWORK!!!! <_< lol who came up with the idea for homework? HONESTLY!? Homework sucks majorly and I hate it. Freakin omg! My Latin teacher gave us homework on the first night, tons of translating to do. I don't remember ne thing from last year, so i had to look through my binder every five freakin seconds lol I felt stupid in class too because we had just reviewed the stuff like five seconds ago and he asked me why you accented this part of some word and i was like "um...i dunno" lol i felt so stupid!!! But yea he's the only teacher that gave us homework tonight besides getting our supplies and stuff lol OH SHIT i still have to get my gym clothes around <_< i hate gym its so pointless and the fact that i have preps in all my freakin classes doesn't help me ne! grrr!! oooh and my sandals killed my feet today....they're all blistered and crap. It's so hard to walk on them....it hurts sooo bad....tomorrow i'm so wearing a different pair of sandals lol XD But yea ok i guess that's it for my day cept for when i had to drive home after skewl it was raining really hard and I had to take Yuki home and my bro's gf back to our house so yea lol Had to wait on them to get out there and then i had to drive in the pouring rain! grr!! Alright well i'm gonna go so i'll see ya guys later! love ya!!!

Yawn

2005-08-28T16:30:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!! There's nothin new going on with me lately cept that i gots me a bf!!! Well actually he's my ex but yea i still care about him and he about me so we hooked back up lol! I'm sooo happy! ^_^ i really like him and i want it to work out this time! So yea lol Last night me and two of my best friends went out for a girl's night out and it was so fun!! we hit the mall and went out driving in the middle of elida and no where lol we got lost and yea oh and we stalked this one guy that goes to skewl with us! we like sat outside of his house for like 5 minutes lol XD it was so funny i bet he didn't even know we were there lol XD i hope not at least lol but yea i'm glad that we won the first football game of the season! i hope it keeps going like this and we actually win alot this year <_< oh well if we don't i'm used to it lol oh and can't forget to mention that i got my license on thursday!! check out my msn space to read the blog post about it lol!! alright well i think i'm gonna go now and watch my TMR: Crush Dvd lol so see ya guys later and love ya!! :D

Totally gay!!!

2005-08-19T17:18:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! Omg i hate my schedule for this upcoming skewl year. It so gay! i have to keep going from the 3rd floor down to the 1st floor every freakin period!! It wasn't fun last year so why would it be fun this year? They hate me i know they do!!! GRRR!!! lol but yea at least me and Yuki have S.S and Lunch together and I'll be takin her home after skewl so we can spend sometime together and we have some of the same classes but not together <_< go figure, they dont' want us together lol x.x Man Advanced biology is gonna be hard this year...i hope i'm smart enough to pass it....if not i'm gonna cry!!! oh can't forget about Latin 2, i gotta go over my notebook from latin 1 to make sure i remember everything lol don't want to blank out in the middle of class on something simple like wat is a participle? lol that's easy! its a verbal adjective!!! lol duh!!! Treble Choir is gonna be fun. Ever since I swam into that wall my singing has gone down hill.....no comments from ne one on that <_< Gosh and I got a new teacher for Geometry...she took the place of my fave alg teacher from last year...he was soo kewl!! i hope she's as good as him and funny too! that really helped me learn....wait! i learned something from last year? lol ^_^ i dont want to take gym though....i hate gym its soo gay! what is the point? i'd rather be stuck in latin all day than go through one gym period. Grrrr!!! lol Ne ways.....omg i got my driving test scheduled for next thursday!! i'm soo scared! i hope i pass....o.O i don't know what i'll do if i don't! its at 1 so at least i'll be somewhat concious....hopefully lol....alright well i think that's about it for right now. See ya guys later.....love ya!!! *Specially you Yaoikitty whenever u send me Speed Master Live!!!! lol ^_^*

HAPPY HAPPY B-DAY!!!

2005-08-14T19:17:00.000-04:00

HEY YOU GUYS!!! whelp today I'm freakin 16!! I'm so happy! i'm just hanging around with Yuki and playing Dynasty Warriors 3 AGAIN!!! lol my character is dying so i'm letting her kill everything lol...I've only been up for about 4 hours now lol Today we went out to Bandido's to eat! it was fun and they sang to me and i was like "HOLA" or w/e it is they say lol...yesterday i went to the Olive Garden and they sang to me there which scared the crap out of me lol Me and Yuki went to the bathroom and i came back and they started singing which scared my lol. I was laughing and i told my rent's i was like "i know where u live and ur going to die painfully in your sleep" lol. But yea alright there's really nothing else to write about cept for a ton of bad crap happened on the day of my party but i don't want to relive it so i'm not gonna talk about it! lol ok then well see ya later! love ya guys!!

P.S Thanks to everyone on Nanokiero who wished me a happy bday it means so much to me to know u guys care!!! =D and thanks to Yaoikitty who wished me and awesome bday with this hott pic!! love it and thanks Yaoikitty!!!

Boring, boring, and more boring <_< ...

2005-08-12T20:09:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! There's really nothing goin on today. I'm so bored. The only exciting thing today was when i got up to go to Applebee's to eat <_< really entertaining isn't it? lol Well there's only 2 more days till the big sweet 16!! :D can't wait! and tomorrow is my party! i'm gettin money, i already know that for my bday from most of my relatives lol. Shane is buying me my TMR Vertical Infinity cd which i've wanted since it came out in july. I'm planning on buying Gackt: Sixth Day and DAI: Break of Dawn and maybe Namie Amuro: Queen of Hip-Pop if i have enough money...i hope so cuz i like all those albums lol. Well i think i'm gonna go now since i've got nothing to do but lay around and be a vegetable in front of the tv lol ^_^ see ya guys later...love ya!!! :D

Coming soon...

2005-08-09T06:56:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!!!! *waving frantically to everyone reading this* Gosh I'm having some trouble on my stories lol i can't decide what to do with my stories, where to make them go, and who to add to them and such! lol Specially on my moon child story...i don't know what to do with it. Oh! And i have no idea what to with jyojyoushi... :( still don't know what i'm going to do with that. But when i get back to it i'll post it on nano for all my friends to see! after i run it by Yuki and see what she thinks of it. lol she takes forever sometimes lol. But yea....i've been listening to AOL radio and they have a great j-pop radio that i've learned a whole bunch of new bands from. Like Rina Auichi and Love Psychedelico and some others that I can't remember right now lol...unfortunately i haven't heard ne Namie Amuro on there yet. They've had tons of Laruku on there but no Namie or Malice Mizer or Dir en Grey. :( They don't put the good bands on there lol jm!!! But yea ok i'm gonna get off here and maybe go to sleep after watching 1776 with Yuki and working on my comp some more lol. Oh! Only 5 days till my sweet 16 and only 4 till my party!! Can't wait until then!! Get my special presents...especially from Yuki :D :D :D lol. Then there's only 16 days until i get my license and only 21 days until skewl starts *cries* i don't want to go back to skewl mommy!! save me!!! lol just messing!! alright well i guess i'm gonna get off here...see you guys later!! love ya!!!

Untitled today

2005-08-07T21:32:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!! Only a week left until my sweet 16!!! :D sooo can't wait until it comes around! But i found out that instead of my party being on sunday like it should be....we're having my party on saturday night so that way we can have all the family, since my dad has a gulf tournament on my bday and stuff *pouts* only my dad would do that lol. But at least Yuki is gonna be here with me so i'm happy lol and yea! Well ok i think that's it so see ya guys later! love ya!!

Bothering me...

2005-08-05T21:35:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys....i just got somethings bothering me. I can't figure out why i feel this way. I've just been blowing up at everyone for no reason again. I don't know if it's just because of the heat or if it's because of something else, maybe my depression. I'm starting to get worried because i'm starting to act coldly to Yuki and i don't like it. It hurts when i yell at her or act mean and cold to her because i usually don't mean it. Then today I blew up at my mom and dad for no reason. It just felt like they kept pushing me and i felt overwhelmed for no reason. They wouldn't leave me alone. *cries* I don't know why this is so difficult for me. Everything just seems to be falling around me, the walls that i had built to keep the nonprivliged ppl out is falling and it seems that i'm letting everything affect me. I wish someone could help me. I've gotten some books on depression and stuff because maybe that's what's wrong with me, well and the fact that I've tried to kill myself twice now but still, I'm hoping that I can find a way to get over it before something really dangerous evolves and happens. Well I guess that's it for right now you guys. See ya later and love ya!!

So soon...

2005-08-01T22:24:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!!!! *waves frantically* omg i can't believe that my b-day is in 13 days!!! it's so close that i'm freakin out that i won't have a good b-day! omg and the other day freakin i ran into a car in the parking lot....3 weeks until i can get my license!!! i was crying and everything! it was so bad and i was flipping out and just scared that they would take away my temps and stuff lol. So ne ways...there's only 24 days till i can get my license and only 29 days until skewl :( i don't want to go back yet i do....i can't wait to pick on the freshmen!! lol it will be sooo fun! :D but yea lol alright i'm gonna get off here and watch Laguna Beach! Oh btw himeno did u catch that Totally Spies movie? It was totally awesome! i loved it!!! Lol and i got a new story in mind that i wanna write.....its a dirrty one too lol ;) i know how you and Yaoikitty are lol. Ok well see ya guys later and love ya!!!!

Hot....

2005-07-25T17:39:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! Omg it's sooooo hot outside right now. It's annoying.....i wanna go swimming lol but my mom is asleep and won't take me which totally sucks! and i'm hungry too <_< i'm just too lazy to go make my own food lol but ne ways.....there's really nuttin new going on with me just been hanging out with Yuki for the past like 6 weeks in a row lol and yea i've also been messing with my phone too lol u know figuring out how it works lol its fun! it's my new favorite toy! XD omg i found the kewlest phrase the other day lol: This ain't burger king, u can't always have it ur way! omg i fell in love with that the first time i heard it lol......its so true sometimes. Right now i'm burning a cd with tons of different music on it for my car lol.....and i'm listening to Ayumi-Alterna and Hyde-Hideaway....love those songs!!! :D grr....i'm bored again lol......i wonder if i can go to the movies today or sometime soon....i wanna see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory ^_^ Johnny Depp is so hott :D lol mmm i want him and some chocolate........*whoops got off subject there* lol but yea alright i think i'm gonna stop writing now lol and maybe go work on my msn space since i haven't updated it in a while lol alright whelp see ya guys!

p.s. omg i have been addicted to reading Moon Child fics the past few days thanks to Yaoikitty! lol love ya girl and thanks for telling me about those! u know the dirty ones ;) lol those are HOTT!!!! alright now i'm gonna go! see ya later and love ya!!!

still untitled

2005-07-23T19:43:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! i'm bored and tired right now.....i've been up since 1:30 this afternoon lol i was up all night again like usual....lol i love to do that! i'm in a better mood than i was the other day when i was all depressed....i hate being depressed lol it sucks major monkey balls lol XD so yea thanks himeno for caring about my problem! i really appreciate it! ur a good friend lol. Well i think thats all i'm gonna write about today since nothing really happened except for we went to a relatives bday lol she turned 2!!!! lol she got tons of clothes lol i wish i had that many clothes <_<....*thinks: just like himeno god she goes shopping everyday lol* jm himeno i still love ya! lol well i think i'm gonna get off of here and send that dirty part of my story to himeno and Yaoikitty lol! whelp alright see ya guys later! Love ya!!!

untitled

2005-07-19T23:41:00.000-04:00

hey u guys. There's really nothing to write about right now. i'm just seriously depressed right now. Don't know why though but I am. I can't help but feel this way. its that sickenly ugly feeling deep down that gets on my nerves and knaws at me until i finally pay attention to it. I guess its been there for a while but I've been to busy avoiding it. It's coming back to bite me in the ass right now. *starts crying* damnit i'm seriously depressed now. Arrrrgh....i think i just need to step back and take a break from everything thats going on right now. Maybe that'll help. I dunno right now i feel like shit and that no one cares nor wants to care. I know there are ppl who do care about me, don't get me wrong, I know himeno does and Yaoikitty and Yuki and my family and friends, but i feel like they don't right now. This has just been carrying on too much. *Sigh* I think i need to decide what i want in life. I wanna be with my bf again but i don't think that's gonna happen. I think i have this issue with wanting to plz everyone and not myself. Why do i have to be such a freaking caring person?? Sometimes it gets really annoying and bothersome!!!!! *cries more* grrrr!!! Alright well i think i better get off here before i cry ne more.....well see ya guys later. Sayonara! Luv ya.

Tons of stuff!!!

2005-07-17T00:33:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!!!! I got my cell phone!!! It's soooo kewl!!! I love it! I got unlimeted txt on it :D me and Yuki sit there and txt back and forth when we're in the same room! We're soo lazy sometimes lol....but its so fun! lol *sigh* less than a month until my 16th bday! can't wait! Gosh things are moving so fast. I can't believe most of my summer is gone! x.x where did it go!?!? Now that i think about it i haven't worked on my stories in a while lol. I bet ppl on nanokiero are flipping out wondering where i am lol. Well not here, I'm in my own little world lol. Well I think thats it for right now. I'll talk to ya guys later! Love ya!

Driving....!!!!!

2005-07-15T02:13:00.000-04:00

KYAA!!!!! *sorry himeno lol* OMG we went out driving today in my new car! i had so much fun. We took it to ABC warehouse to get a new stereo for it and its totally awesome! it plays mp3 disks and stuff! me and my mom were out all day and we were shopping all day and when we got done we stopped at mcdonalds for some chocolate milkshakes!!! YUMMY!!! ^_^ Then later I came home, after testing my player some more.....gosh i love that thing, and messed with my computer for awhile and tryed to take a nap but my mom came in to ask what i wanted for supper >.< lol but yea then i talked to Yuki and so i went and got her and now she's hanging at my house watching Family Guy! I love that show lol. It's so awesome! Lol.....well I think that's it. I'll see ya guys later! Love ya!

Soooo borrrrreeeddd!!!

2005-07-13T19:28:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! Omg someone help me here! I'm seriously bored and there's nothing to do. Yuki might hang out with me later but I dunno. She might not too lol I never know with her. Right now I'm hanging out by myself and working on my blog and msn space. I got an eye on nanokiero but nothing is really happening lately so I'm not that interested right now lol. Gosh today I stayed up till about 7/8 a.m and finally crashed. My head was hurting so bad i had to. Christine got mad at me though cuz she wanted me and her to stay up the whole night lol. I'm sorry I couldn't do it christine! lol but ne ways...we were takin pics all last night and only got like 60 good ones lol. No Ash you can't have them, they're all mine! lol. Man I'm soooo happy cuz i got my car today but freakin my mom won't let me drive it yet cuz its not "officially" on the insurance yet. Plus she's tired and wants to be gay about it lol. So yea....ne ways....its so cute i like it. I'm gonna put a cd player in it though cuz there's not one in there and um yea lol. I can't wait until i get my license it'll be so much fun! I'm gonna be so kewl and be doing nothing all the time cuz no one wants to do ne thing with me :( lol but yea. I can at least take myself to skewl so that'll be good lol i won't have to ride the stupid busses. God i hate those things! Oh and half the ppl on them! lol omg they're so annoying! *Sigh* I think that's it i guess lol i keep typing and writing nothing lol. Alright well see ya guys later! Sayonara and luv ya!

Hey...

2005-07-12T22:08:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! There's nothing really going on with me. Just found out my ex has a gf and i can't go out with him. Yea it kinda bites but i'm happy for him. As long as he's happy then i'm happy. I know that sounds over used and gay but i really am. I just can't get over the issue that he has a gf and he's sittin there flirtin with me! It's weird........but oh well.......any ways...Christine is over here so i'm having fun with her! We're taking porn shots! lol and looking all hott...ok well i am she just looks weird lol. Well sorry this is short but yea....I'm gonna get off here so I'll see ya guys later! Love ya!!

Some quick b-days!!!

2005-07-11T20:45:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys I thought I'd put this on here before it got too late. I found out that today is Takeo's b-day *from Pierrot* and also Sakurai Yuki's *the singer in Raphael*. I thought that i'd be nice and put a big happy b-day for them on here! I would be really upset if i forgot to put that on here so yea lol. Alright...um...oh tomorrow is Shizumi's b-day! *the drummer from Kagerou!* So don't forget to celebrate his b-day!!!! Alright well later you guys!

Admit it...

2005-07-11T02:36:00.000-04:00

Aight you guys I admit where my faults lie. I know I was too late to be with the one i love and i know i can't change what's happened. Chris don't even start cuz i know u will. I already know that if this whole thing wouldn't have started then Ash wouldn't be mad at me and I might still have a chance but now i know that chance is gone so yea. And the whole thing wasn't brett's idea it was my idea with her helping me. You don't know why the hell i did wat i did so don't even comment. I know you know Ash more than I do and I know u prolly know whats best for him thats why I admit to you, personally, that i'm going to stay away from him. I won't start ne conversations or ne thing. If he talks to me then thats him but I ain't starting nuttin. I just want this whole thing to go away so that way we don't keep getting into arguments about it some odd years from now. And Ash yea I'm sorry I hurt you but what could u expect from me when u had just pulled that act? I wasn't exactly thrilled either way. I first thought u were dead and then the tramatic experience of finding out that you weren't. It wasn't exactly heaven going through that. I'm sorry if i sound like a bitch right now but I'm just getting sick of this shit. Oh and if you have gf already then fine good for you. I'm happy for you that u can move on and get over me. That just proves how much u don't care for me...ok maybe that wasn't the best thing to say here. I'm only saying that I cared, still care, but I don't want to ruin your happiness. So, if that means backing down now that you have gf then I will. But you know, if you have a gf you shouldn't go and tell another girl that you love her, right behind your gf's back. That's not exactly a good thing to do. Sorry, got a little emotional again, but yea ne ways...I just wanted to tell u guys that and i admit to my mistakes and wrongs. Oh and Himeno sorry there wasn't ne thing for u to read in this post...it was an old issue that has to be taken care of...but I promise I'll write something for u...an entry all about u sometime when i get around to it lol. Alright well I guess thats it then you guys.

Back!!!

2005-07-10T19:14:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys!!! Omg I'm finally back from Lake Erie and I missed everyone so much. Of course Yuki was with me and we were having great fun. Omg it was so crazy last night *the last night we were there* we were laying in bed playing a stupid game *blame everything on Bob game* and we were laughing and stuff and my grandpa comes up and starts beating on the wall and telling us to be quiet. Well I got completely scared and almost wet myself! XD can't believe i really almost did that. It was so hillarious! Well ne ways...we were laying there and all of a sudden it sounded like someone was having sex with the wall!! o.O I was completely laughing my ass off with Yuki it was crazy. Then i got bored and was laying there and we were talking about cheap strip teases so i was laying there and every few minutes i would take off a piece of clothing lol until i was down to just my undies with the sheet covering my top half! It was completely hillarious cuz Yuki didn't think i would actually do it but i did!! haha. Then I'm soooo bored and I looked at the clock and it was already like 4:45 in the morning and we had to get up at like 9:50 but i was sooo not tired and neither was Yuki so we would lay there and make up stupid crap! What really sucked though is that day when we were swimming i accidentally swam right into the wall! XD don't ask how i did it but i did and my nose is all swollen and stuff and it hurts! Which totally sucks! I can't believe i did that, but now its just seriously funny! *Sigh* I got some more pressing issues on my mind but not as bad as the whole ex-bf thing lol. But got some good news if u haven't read it on nanokiero yet....I finished vanilla and I hope you guys are happy with how it goes...i just have to wait for Yuki *my new found "Editor"* to finish with it and yea lol. I'm also going to add my other story that I'm titling Jyojyoushi, onto Nanokiero. Whelp I think that's everything I'm gonna mention right now. hope you guys missed me and I'm sooo glad to be back! Well later you guys!! *P.S. While i was up there at Lake Erie and out in the sun swimming, I never got tanned!!!!! grrr! :@ lol*

Vacation time!!

2005-07-05T19:28:00.000-04:00

Hey! Whelp I'm gonna be leaving for my five day vacation tomorrow morning. I'm heading up to Lake Erie for a while to take a break from stuff and to just hang out! Me and Yuki are going up and we're gonna be checkin out the hott guys! ;) lol. I can't wait to get up there and go swimming it's gonna be so much fun! Right now i'm puttin some Gackt n Miyavi and more Laruku and Pierrot on my mp3 player and then i'm gonna burn Smile and maybe another copy of Awake since my one that i burnt last week keeps skipping. I'm also gonna burn a mix with Miyavi and some Dir en Grey and some other crap on it lol. I'm glad that i got a big ass memory card in it...i want a bigger one though...maybe a 512 i think or something like that lol or how bout a 1gb one lol. That would be awesome. Well I guess this'll do until i get back! I'm gonna miss all my nanokiero buddies! Have fun w/out me lol! Love ya guys! Later!

Gackt's b-day!!

2005-07-04T03:42:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys I just wanted to inform you guys that today is Gackt's b-day! He's turning 32 by my calculations lol since he was born in 1973. (even though he says he was born in the 1500's lol) So for my toast i would just like to say, "Thank you Gackt for being a great artist and coming out with so many great singles/albums. If there is one thing you have taught me it's how to live your life to the fullest and how to have fun while doing it! So once again I want to say thank you and Happy 32nd Camui Gackt!!!!" So should there be 32 spankings? lol just messing! Alright well I'm going to let you guys get back to your Gackt b-day celebration activities! Have fun!! Bye bye!!

Swimming...

2005-07-02T00:48:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! omg me and Yuki and some of my other friends went swimming today! it was sooo freaking fun! the radio station was out there giving stuff away....sadly though i didn't win ne thing. lol they all hate me! just messing. omg i'm so tired now though...i'm sittin here drinking a mt.dew and trying to stay awake lol. well let's see, today when we went swimming my contact lens went up into the top part of my eye and i had to pull it back down. it did that on both eyes! that totally made me mad. Right now, though, i'm working on my profile and downloading some pierrot videos. I love them so much. they're so freaking kewl! i haven't asked my ex back out yet though, i have to wait for him to get online. all my friends tell me i should go back out with him and i'm like i am duh! lol...they can be weird sometimes. right now Yuki fell asleep which is totally not fun cuz now i have nuttin to do lol. i can't wait, only two more days till Gackt's b-day!! he's sooo freaking kewl. i wish i could meet him in real life, that would be totally fun! Well i think that's all i wanted to say and that i need to work on vanilla some more. Alright well see ya guys later! love ya!

Dunno what to do...

2005-07-01T03:30:00.000-04:00

God i can't get this issue off my mind. I don't know what to do. I don't know if i should go back out with my ex or not. I'm crazy in love with him but i don't want to hurt him again and i don't want to be upset. Everytime we break up it hurts both of us and i don't want to hurt him ne more, but i can't stand being without him. What should i do? Should i go back out with him because i miss him or should i not go out with him so that i don't hurt him again? I still care about him, i never stopped caring about him. Even though i pulled a ton of stupid shit on him, he still cares about me and i care about him, yet we don't live near by and stuff. I don't wanna have to worry if he's cheating on me and stuff or if he's talking shit about me. I can't stand the worrying. Man this issue is sooooo stressful! Maybe i should just ask him out again so that i can get it over with, yet i don't want to hurt him! Has ne one ever felt like this before? My life sucks without him in it, yet i can't focus when i'm going out with him. I'm sooo confused! *sigh* you know what? I'm just gonna take Yuki's advice. I'm gonna go back out with him. But i don't want to upset her. No! I'm gonna go back out with him...after i talk to him about how i feel. Yeah, thats a good thing to do. Alright well i feel better now. Well i guess i better stop writing now lol. only three more days till Gackt's bday! July 4!!!! lol alright well see ya guys later!!

Best freaking album!!!

2005-07-01T00:08:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys! omg i found the best album ever! The new Laruku album, Awake, is totally freaking kewl!! Yea, i thought that at first it was boring and didn't sound all that good, but after i listened to it for a while i was totally hooked!!! lol that sounded kind of weird. But yea ne ways, I love the fast paced songs and how Hyde sounds in them! He is totally kewl and hott and something about his voice just draws you in. Then on their slow songs, they're just as good as the fast songs. They're just so alluring and yea lol. I'm glad Laruku came out with this album! It's soooooo freaking kewl and good! Alright well I guess that's enough of my rambling on about the Laruku cd. I think I should get paid for advertisement lol. Ok, well see ya guys later!!

Finally!!!

2005-06-29T00:59:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys i finally figured out the frigging links issue! lol i'm sooo happy! i was gettin all frustrated by it and stuff but i got it so thats good lol! now you can go check out my links lol! oh and thanks for the help himeno! it was muchly appreciated lol! There's another yaoi pic for you to look at Himeno! lol its Gackt and Masa from Vanilla live! I love the video lol! i watch it all the time! :D lol

My new kitten....

2005-06-28T21:37:00.000-04:00

hey you guys i thought I'd put a pic of my new kitten Koneko on here. Just so you guys can let me know what u think lol! ok well here is a pic of him! He's such a cutie!! He's also a little bouncing ball of energy lol. He loves to play when u wanna sleep lol

Had to put this on here...

2005-06-28T02:22:00.000-04:00

Sorry you guys i swear this is the last time i'm gonna put something lol! i just had to put these two pics on here so everyone can see the two hott guys making out! There's that one and then there's this one! Haha I love these pics! :D Sorry boys but this is for the girls only! Haha lol gotta love that Yaoi!! :D I know I do! lol

I'm sad...

2005-06-28T02:11:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys. *Sigh* I'm sad right now, and the bad thing is i dunno why. I hate it when that happens, i get really upset and depressed for no reason. It's really annoying! Alright I'm gonna calm down now. I just got so frustrated today cuz we got my comp working again but it freezes up every once and a while so its getting on my nerves cuz it does it right when i'm in the middle of something! GRRRR!! But ne ways...right now i'm listening to If~Holiliqouy or something like that by Siam Shade. I'm also playing metal gear solid 2: Sons of Liberty. Its fun walking around and confusing all the enemies b/c i have stealth on lol! but ne ways i love my background right now! It's Reita from Gazette! He's sooo kewl looking. See? That's him to the right! He's kewl i like him! It's just an awesome background....I'm planning on putting something with Miyavi on there next but I dunno. >.< i wish it was real and write it as if it was real lol! *_* that would be scary to read. Then everyone would know my darkest desires, even though I think they're obvious to some people lol. But ne ways, I love Masa. He is soooo cute! Just for the hell of it I'm gonna put him on here so I can see him! Even though I see him on Nanokiero and on my computer lol! *Sigh* I could look at that pic forever! ^_- but unfortunately I can't be on the computer forever. I have to go to sleep eventually! And then I can have sweet dreams of hotties....example #1 ------> Sorry I'm not puttin a pic of Gackt on here lol. I see him enough everyday and listen to him everyday lol. I like him though he's kewl. Maybe in my next post I'll talk about Hyde and Hide lol. I love them they're so kewl! Well I think maybe I rambled on enough about stupid crap today. Hope whoever read this had fun reading it. I told you this is where you find the most randomness things ever lol. It's my blog so of course it's going to be random! Whelp hopefully i can get my comp to stop being gay and I can get a new hardrive soon that's bigger than 10 GB lol. I can't have all my crap on this computer ne ways...:( Ok well I think I'm seriously going to go now and stop talking about stupid things lol. Whelp I guess this is good-bye for right now. See you guys later! Loooooove ya!!

Sorry...

2005-06-27T20:00:00.000-04:00

Hey you guys, sorry for my links looking totally f*cked up. I can't figure out how to get the spaces from out of between the two links...himeno if you could help me that would be great cuz i'm still having alittle trouble with this and the help section isn't all that good! but i thought i would just let you guys know why my links looks like that lol. Alright well see you guys later!

Sooo bored...

2005-06-27T18:25:00.000-04:00

Moshi moshi you guys! Omg there is like nothing to do i'm sooo bored lol. I wanna go over to Yuki's later maybe so that I can hang out with her n her family once again! lol if you can't tell i'm always over at her place lol! Plus i want to finish up Vanilla! I only need a few more pages for my goal which is like 16 pages. That's how long Shinshoku-Lose control was *my Laruku story* and I'm trying to make all my J-rock stories the same length. But yea so ne ways...there's nothing new going on with me right now i'm just sitting here watching my Pierrot mv's and talking to people on MSN messenger and looking at the nanokiero forum! I love that place! Man i woke up like 2 hours ago so i'm still tired and i'm just sitting around in my Pj's lol! Comfy clothes lol! I can't wait until we get my other computer up and running! I love working on stuff in my room and not in the living room since it's not as private as my room and I can't focus lol! My brother bought an XP pro *or w/e* disk today so that way we can install it on my new hard drive thats only like 10GB but we're gonna get a bigger one later on sometime so that I can have my music n videos n crap on it lol. Right now, though, I'm only gonna use it for nanokiero and writing fics and stuff. Hmm, I wonder where my kitten, Koneko, is. I think he's hiding or sleeping in my 'rents room again lol. Well I guess that's it for right now! Lol Sayonara you guys!

Stuff on my mind...

2005-06-27T04:18:00.000-04:00

Moshi moshi you guys....*sigh* i gotta issue on my hands and its not easy to decide. My ex-boyfriend that i still care for cares for me to, but my best friend doesn't want me to go back out with him because of how he hurt me before. I know he didn't mean to hurt me, he's a really sweet guy underneath everything, it's just...his impression on people isn't the "best." He flat out told me the other day, "I still care about you," even after some stupid crap i pulled on him, but the thing is I can't go back out with him because he lives half-way across the world and him and my best friend can not get along very well. This is just too stressful sometimes I wish I knew what to do. I know I'm only 15 and I shouldn't have to worry about finding my special someone but it just feels so right being with him, going out with him, talking with him, sharing secrets with him, yet at the same time i know how wrong it is. I'm soooo confused now! I wish someone could help me! Don't even tell me I need to see a shrink cuz i already know that, but I still don't know what to do. Why does things have to be so confusing in my life? Well guess I'll stop writing now I just thought I'd type that so hopefully I can get it off my mind now! Well sayonara you guys!

P.S Thanks for the help on getting my blog started Himeno! I was seriously lost with this! >.<

Nothing really unusual

2005-06-27T03:07:00.000-04:00

Moshi moshi!! omg i love that phrase lol...but ok there's nothing really out of the ordinary i'm just sitting around being lazy and waiting for some inspiration to kick in so that way i can finish up my Vanilla story!! Geez i want to finish it up so bad so i can go onto a new story, yet i dunno what that one is going to be about! :( Go figure lol. But yea so ne ways, I spent friday night and saturday night over at Yuki's and we had so much fun lol! We went swimming earlier today and we were going crazy over the water in the lake being a really pretty shade of blue. I don't know how to describe it but yea! I don't know if some of you have seen my msn space, well if you're on my messenger i dunno if you have or not but i'll post the address so u can go see it, http://spaces.msn.com/members/fayth123/ its my other blog that i put a whole bunch of other crap on and my pics and music and yea lol you can learn more about me! Isn't that all you want in life? lol! Well right now i'm listening to Hitomi no Juunin remix, its the sleepy Hyde remix or something it sounds weird but its kewl! I got the new Laruku album, Awake, it's decent. Not the best of Laruku but definately not the worst lol! Well i think this is enough for my first blog! I hope you guys enjoy reading this! I'm not really good at first blogs but after awhile i get better lol! Whelp sayonara you guys!